br je seminggu LI dh penat..haha.. da lame gak xbelek2 blog org.. da bosan2 bace la cite org len sekurang2nye leh wt pengajaran dalam hidup aku ni.. oh ye,juz nkcite je aku skunk nih berpraktikal di mardi serdang under department hortikultur.. boleh tahan best la sbb mule2 ni xde keje sgt.. sume supervisor busy ngan persiapan international postharvest symposium kt pwtc 25jun nt.. tapi yg ade kawan2 aku da start wat projek diorg..aku ni belom lg..maklumla dapat supervisor 'busy'..hahaha. ntah bile aku nak ddapat dok asrama ni..dok menumpang kat rumah aku ni pon da wat aku bosan taw..nothing to do n xle nk g mane sangat.. tperap je kt bilik ni..adoy... n yg pastinye mmg ngntuk la duk dalam bilik ni lame2..hehe. ok la,mau cau2 lu..tata!!

Kecewa!!

Pejam celik pejam celik da masuk bulan ke 3 dlm 2012 ni..cpt sungguh mase blalu. Ah,xkisah la..lme gile xmncarut marut kat sini.. Well,aku xde sape nk aku luahkn perasaan aku..sperti tiade lg tmpt bgantung..kt U ni aku kekadang rse cam sorg2 pon ye..haish! K la,ape yg aku nk nyatakn ialah aku KECEWA!!! Nth knp..aku sllu ase cmni..ksian kt aku kan?org yg aku nk anggp die bf aku tp die kcwakn prasaan aku..skli lg aku mngatakn TIDAK kpd laki2 dluar sane tu..blm ade yg bjaye mncuri hati aku yg sedie ade keras ni...(klu ade suatu hr nt aku bgtau jgk..hihi)... 


I never forget u..everyday i woke up i still remember u,feel u..like wanna hug u..miss the moment when we r both went out together,laugh together,eat together.. I never delete your photos n our photos even we r not together anymore..how can i survive without u!  U r my angle babe!!! Is it wrong if i miss u?call u everyday?juz wanna u to know how deep my love for u..bcoz of our situation we r separated...thats my choices..coz i cant stand to heard your harsh word everyday complaining my duties here...i cant stand to know u r suffer waiting for me while i can live freely without u..


I still need your attention although u start to make a distance in our relationship..my tears is drain. No one knows,no one care..i keep on searching u in fb..there is the only way i can know your condition dear.. Maybe i should stop from being like that...stop stalking u wherever u do.. In the past,we keep fighting because fb..now,u do something i dunno in my back..so many negative thinking flying in my minds... Feel so sory coz have that negative thinking..i'm juz a human,cannot bear this burden thing..my crying hearts could burst one day when finally i saw your photos with your new 'wife'.. What should i do?trying to avoid u..itry but seems i cant do it.. If not,i  would not searching u and keep asking where r u...?


Iam starving..starving your care n love..iam afraid if some day u could read these.. =(
I dunno what to say coz i cant forget u..i know it is my fault but i cant turn it back..our ego control us.. I must fight my own feeling so that i would not lose easily to u..i have my own pride..n u too.. I hope u can deserve the best love in your life..i pray for your successful.. Iam here to support u and i always there for u...